Life is certainly hard ! And right now I am at the point where I have to grab what is in front of me to get to the ''happiness'' part. So I will write a bit more about why University the past year has meant hell for me . . . In Québec after highschool we have a little bit more precise scholar establishment called Cégep. There you can do a DEP (Preuniversitary diploma) of 2 years (mainly in Human Sciences, Nature Sciences, Communications and Administration) or you can do a technic of 3 years that gives you the opportunity to get a job afterwards or go to university anyway (DEC-BAC). As for me I went in Human Sciences since I wanted to be a psychoeducator and no technics exist for this profession (only similar ones). My 2 years went with average grades (even tho I did not do my absolute best at it) except in mathematics and economy, I totaly fell in an eternal black hole with these courses which lowered my total grades. Even tho I had some difficulties there I really loved the surrounding, the teachers, well the experience in general.
But once it came to subscription for universities, we didn't take much chances and sent letters in every single one that was giving the program. One after all they came back with a note of rejection. Except for one in Abitibi-Temiscamingue. . . You might not realise it, but Québec is huge and that place is 16 hours in car away from my home and it's quite far from everything so I decided not to go over there and instead subscribed to a program that was accepting everyone and had common courses with what I wanted to do.
Even tho it looks like a good thing, it wasn't. The classes weren't interesting me, so at the end of the first term I asked to change program but was refused again. So I continued in a program that I disliked. At the end of the winter term I was about to demand a change of program again to realise that they weren't accepting any new candidat for next automn, which means (if you followed me well) that I screwed an entire session of 1600 $ and more for nothing. . .
And so summer came, I started to work (2 jobs at a time) while trying to find a university that would want of me. . . I found a program in Social Service near my hometown that was given by my last university and thought it would be a good idea, since it's close and well even tho it's not exactly what I want to do it gives pretty much the same jobs. So I sent the subscription with the money asked for the administration, we sent it by UPS with a signature from the ones that were getting it there AND guess what, they lost it from the docks to the administration office! Of course I couldn't know, I was patiently waiting my answer but the check wasn't passing in my bank transactions. At this same time, our canadian post was in strike so I thought that the delays were caused by this but near the end of July (university starts in lat august) I called and told me they never got my inscription, but I told them I had the signed proof from Purolator that the package made it there, so the women lied to me saying that all the students check would pass in a week or two and that they will send me an e-mail to tell me the answer. No need to tell it was another refusal, plus the check never passed, which means they never had my subscription in hand and when they checked my school folder their groups were probably already full !
My last option I could think about was to go back to Cegep in another program to find something else and so I went to consult the counseler there and she found me the certificat that I am doing now. This certificat is the back door to get to the psychoeducation program in a certain university. If I get good grades, I might be taken. If not, I will pretty much be out of solutions.
Do I have to mention that all this was and is still giving me alot of stress and I am not a stressed person at all.
Lately the governement talk about raising the university fees saying we pay less than the other provinces because we made the decision to make university accessible for everybody and thus students should ''do their part''. . . Well what I have to say about this is accessible MY ASS. The school system is full of bureaucrates who are told to do their job slowly, to lie to students in need because of their errors, etc. The money the governement gives to the universities are for marketing, marketing, marketing, football a mere sum is going to the student in the form of loans and grants, which only 20 % of the students have acces to . . .Doing our part ? Or the part you invest in useless shit ?
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